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Mortician versus morgue technician.

I have the opportunity, yet again, to transfer to the morgue. It wouldn't be until January 15th but I can bide my time. I keep asking myself why I went through the extra two years of school if I wasn't planning on using my education. Do I want to embalm bodies forever? Sure I love it... but in the morgue I get to cut them open. I would also be under a closer watch. I would be a tech, not my own entity. And I am compulsive about making the bodies perfect. Posing and reposing. Filling in concave areas. Making the deceased more beautiful than they were in life, because really... isn't death more beautiful than life? I wouldn't be doing that in the morgue. I would be wrecking the bodies. I'm not sure I could make myself walk away from them in such a disarrayed state.

However, The Dark Creature would love to work at the morgue. Simply the thought of sawing through someones scull cap or cracking ribs after a Y incision is enough to make it quiver with pleasure. My monster and me... as usual fighting over which path to choose. My neurotic compulsions with cleanliness and order or it's compulsion with destruction and blood lust.