Having antisocial personality disorder AKA being a psychopath, I don't have the ability to feel sympathy (no conscience), I obviously don't react normally to things that should make me sad or distressed... That's been made quite clear lately. In fact, typically I respond with either finding the situation humorous or setting something on fire to amuse myself. But does that mean I don't have the ability to be happy? In a word, yes. Only as the emotion happy, though. I am very content and play 'happy' very well. Is it so I don't get sympathy from people? Not really. Though that would be awkward, for there is nothing to be sorry for and dealing with others emotions is difficult for me. Frankly, I don't understand most of them.
I'm not going to lie, there are times a little feeling tries to break through. Usually it's merely inconvenient and I push it aside, other times it's confusing because I don't have enough experience having emotion to know what it is. Then I shrug it off and move on. The closest thing that I have to deal with emotion-wise is what I call attachment toward a couple of my animals and possibly a person or two... which basically feels like you want whats best for them but you don't go out of your way to provide it. Everything and everyone else is insignificant to me and I have no capacity to really care what happens to them. Nor the desire.
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